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Step 1: Put your iTunes or equivalent on random.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Bold out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!



1. we’ll do it all, everything, on our own
2. oh all the money in my whole life did I spend
3. Na Na Na, Na Na Na Naaa
4. Can’t believe that its over, baby
5. I may not always love you
6. What Kind of Love have you got?
7. I saw you coming from a mile away
8. Save yourself, cuz the only thing that matters is that you get away
9. Twisting, Turning, crashing, burning
10. I can see theres a lot on your mind
11. Oh ho ho its magic, you know
12. Is there a reason for my pain
13. the sun kisses the windowsill and im still on my second cup of pity
14. you need a friend, ill be around
15. I told you, I see you rise
16. put your head on my shoulders
17. I keep watch on this heart of mine
18. you give ur hand to me, then you say hello
19. It sure is hot out here, you know I don’t mind tho
20. Theres a grief that can’t be spoken, as the pain goes on and on
21. Here at the party, everyone’s happy, everyone is high
22. What a wonderful hesitation, who would bear to feel sorry for me
23. tell me where have you been, my blue-eyed son
24. Fruit on the vine, you’ve got yours, I’ve got mine
25. Don’t know what color of your eyes are baby
26. I, I always thought I knew
27. Who made up all the rules
28. I used to think that maybe you loved me, now baby im sure
29. Daniel is traveling tonight on a plane
30. Well You can dig me up a grave, and try to stick me in the ground

okay so i havent written in a long time, and right now im working on a paper that i could really use a break (even tho i havent been working on it without any distractions) oh well......yeah i havent even had my industry class yet this semester, but i have homework due the first class......what to do? just suck it up and do it.....

so me and cal are amazing....i think that everyday i fall for him more and more.....i missed him so much over break, even tho i saw him twice it wasnt enough.....when he came up it was fun and relieving to see him...i was going crazy......for his birthday i went down to visit him, i hung out with his sister and his mom and i had a really good time.....the more i think about this the more i realize that its gunna be hard once he graduates.....but im trying to not think about that right now...i love where we are right now, he means so much to me and ive never been happier than i am right now.....

but back to break nothing too spectatular happened.....christmas was good...was kinda strange not gunna lie, but i love seeing everyone.....new years cal came up.....my birthday came and went......i got to see and hang out with my friends from high school a few times......

i moved in on tuesday (i kno a day early) and i kept it quite while i was moving in so i wouldnt get in trouble....then me, boo, and mal moved our bedroom around that was a couple of hours project, but it looks awesome and was alot of fun to do.....i got to hang out with cal for a little bit that night.......;) ........today classes started and one is already a snoozer.....lol

hmmmm ive got nothing else to write about....so maybe ill go back to my 2 page paper for music industry.......lol i kno ill find something else to distract me.....

From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

[Chorus:]
If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died

And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
(I'm alive)

[Chorus x2]

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
When nobody died...

[Chorus]

We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day, we'd see the day
When nobody died
We'd see the day when nobody died

So i have been stressed for a little bit, but i think im finally relaxed enough to see things clearly.....I love this time of year, this year more so than past years....for once in my life when everyone is together i dont feel like the outsider being that i was always single.....monday night cal and i went to see wrestling at mohegan sun and spent the night at my house.....the next day cal met my family, which meant alot to me......and they all seemed to be trying to make him feel at home...i hope he did....he said he likes them all.....yay:) every day i realize that i love to spend time with him......doesent matter what we are doing.....we can just be sitting watching a movie, or talking i just love spending time with him......i think that this is the first time in my entire life when i feel genually happy with my life and who i am.....things are going good in school, i have the best roommates ever, the best friends, my family is amazing, and i have someone who cares about me.....this is really all ive ever wanted......hopefully he'll be able to come up a few more times during break.....i would love to go to long island to see him....but i dont think i'll be able to get two days off in a row at work....we'll have to see.......i just hope that all this happiness im feeling isnt going to lead to a problem of some sort....im trying to not be a pessamist but im just trying to be cautious.......i am just going to keep my thoughts in my head if any of them are negative......anywho back to this time of the year.....there is still so much to do, like shopping and getting everything ready at home for christmas...but its all very exciting and fun too......

well i guess thats all i have...i should get some cleaning done.......

I thought i knew what i needed, i thought that i could handle it.....but im just

LOST

Okay so lately ive been happy, been not paying much attention to my surroundings until quite recently.....and thru all my realizing how happy i am in my relationship, ive realized that with him is the only place i fit.....i feel akward whenever i go home, its like no one even wants me there....i feel akward in my room at school, and i know that the problem is resolved, but i cant help but feel like i dont fit like i did before.....i love all of my roomates but it seems like they just dont want me involved with anything....i dont know maybe its because i spend so much time with cal, but i didnt think that me finding someone would make me feel like i lost most of my really close friends.....its bad enough i felt like i lost the one friend i thought had understood me, and then my family is even distant, and now my roommates......i dont kno

so then i realized just how much work i have, and im starting to think that maybe i dont have the slightest idea what i want anymore, im completely stressed and i feel like im alone most of the time.....i dont kno why my depression is coming back, i really feel like im seriously happy.....i dont kno i guess i just dont want to be alone, besides cal....i miss my family, i miss my friends, i miss everything.....i have 3 tests before thanksgiving, a big project due with a 5 page paper and a 5 mins power point presentation....oh and the best part is I HAVE ABSOLUTLY NO MONEY.......i had an interview with linen's n things, and they basically told me i had the job, that all i had to do was wait for the hiring manager to call me last thursday to know when to come in to fill out the paperwork...well she never called....and i called everyday this past weekend....didnt get a hold of her....then on monday i finnally did....and she told me that she couldnt hire me and the guy that interviewed me knew when i went in for the interview that they didnt have the hours, yet he still told me that all i had to do was fill in the paperwork.....dena my ra is so mad at them, and she was gunna see if they can get me in there for any time that is available, so we will see......i hate the feeling of not haveing any money.....it drives me nuts, and i dont like taking money from ppl, i dont like asking for help, i need to be able to take care of myself.....and no one seems to get it......its bad enough i have to start paying off my car.....when i went on vacation in may, that fucking drained me finanically.....beyond belief, and even though i worked in new hampshire like crazy hours, i had to use all that money for school....i have to work my ass off during break, cuz i have a freaking $550 credit card bill that i need to pay.....im extremly mad at myself, i told myself i wasnt going to do what my brothers did......and i just wont spend any money until i have a job and start paying off the credit card.....

i hate my life

so seriously the only good thing in my life right now is cal, he means so much to me, but im not being fair to him......with my reservations and stubborness about everything.....i dont know how he puts up with all my bullshit.....

i guess i should get back to studying for the test i just found out about......

My wandering eye has been reading these livejournals and i think i should stop, no its not the same persons i used to read but again it scares me.....but what can you do? i just need to breathe and think it all through, but this song has been on my mind for a while.....


Lips of An Angel, Hinder

Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late

"Who Knew"

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew